Ok here is a quick update :)
Social worker meeting in the mouse house (mine) rescheduled.
It's my third child's 13th birthday today! yikes! Now I have 3 teenagers...
Someone from the buyout program called and we get to sign something on Wednesday - yay maybe we will get to move soon!
Psalm 118:24
This is the day the Lord has made;
We will rejoice and be glad in it.
Thursday, October 31, 2013
Wednesday, October 30, 2013
Lizard Apocalypse :/
Ok, I don't know if lizards are considered warfare to you, but over here they are serious business. Occasionally one gets in our house when we open the door to let out the dogs or cats. Because we don't like to catch them with our hands (unless my husband is home) or kill them, getting them out usually involves some screaming and chasing with a broom until the lizard runs out the door.
So yesterday when I was on my way home from work, my daughter called and was kinda freaking out. Apparently 4 lizards crawled at just about the same time into our living room from the window unit. Really. 4. I just happened to be a little ways from home so I called my mom to go to my house and help my kids. They basically just stood there watching the lizards until I got home because apparently I'm the expert haha.
About an hour or a little more later, all 4 had been either chased out or caught in various containers and let go. This of course led to moving all furniture and then what do you do? You clean under the sofas and rug and everything else you moved. Did I mention to you that was my only time to clean the whole house because a social worker was meeting here the next morning early to do a first home visit?
So stress is snowballing, and we still know we can't be approved in this house, and my husband is stressed and overloaded with work, and my daughter is still going through a breakup, and I can never seem to get caught up with everything, and did I mention we may or may not have a mouse in the kitchen. 18 years in this house- never had a mouse and all of a sudden on the very week of our first home visit.
I'm not stupid. I know that as burdened as my heart is for abused/neglected children, God feels the same way. I also believe that Satan wants nothing more than for those kids to stay in the situations they are in, because then they have a higher chance of repeating the cycle. Even last night, when my husband and I were on the way to class we had thoughts of - maybe we are too busy to do this. Oh my heart is sad to think that we could be too busy with running in the hamster wheel of our lives to have time for the hurting and broken people of this world.
As soon as we got to class and began discussion, once again it was confirmed in my heart that this is where God wants me. No matter what darts the devil throws, I will fight back with the Word of God and walk in this path that He has for me.
Ephesians 6:10,11
Finally, my brethren, be strong in the Lord and in the power of His might. Put on the whole armor of God that you may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil.
So yesterday when I was on my way home from work, my daughter called and was kinda freaking out. Apparently 4 lizards crawled at just about the same time into our living room from the window unit. Really. 4. I just happened to be a little ways from home so I called my mom to go to my house and help my kids. They basically just stood there watching the lizards until I got home because apparently I'm the expert haha.
About an hour or a little more later, all 4 had been either chased out or caught in various containers and let go. This of course led to moving all furniture and then what do you do? You clean under the sofas and rug and everything else you moved. Did I mention to you that was my only time to clean the whole house because a social worker was meeting here the next morning early to do a first home visit?
So stress is snowballing, and we still know we can't be approved in this house, and my husband is stressed and overloaded with work, and my daughter is still going through a breakup, and I can never seem to get caught up with everything, and did I mention we may or may not have a mouse in the kitchen. 18 years in this house- never had a mouse and all of a sudden on the very week of our first home visit.
I'm not stupid. I know that as burdened as my heart is for abused/neglected children, God feels the same way. I also believe that Satan wants nothing more than for those kids to stay in the situations they are in, because then they have a higher chance of repeating the cycle. Even last night, when my husband and I were on the way to class we had thoughts of - maybe we are too busy to do this. Oh my heart is sad to think that we could be too busy with running in the hamster wheel of our lives to have time for the hurting and broken people of this world.
As soon as we got to class and began discussion, once again it was confirmed in my heart that this is where God wants me. No matter what darts the devil throws, I will fight back with the Word of God and walk in this path that He has for me.
Ephesians 6:10,11
Finally, my brethren, be strong in the Lord and in the power of His might. Put on the whole armor of God that you may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil.
Sunday, October 27, 2013
Life Right Now
Chasing or waiting?
Its hard when you feel so burdened and called to do something but natural circumstances prevent it. Very hard. Years ago I know God put a burden for foster care/adoption on my heart. My husband agreed and we looked into it. We knew that we needed another bedroom because we have 4 kids and a 3 bedroom house. We started taking classes anyway and through the classes I felt complete confirmation that I was following God's will.
Well, had a few financial setbacks, then after some months went by we started to discuss the possibility of closing in our garage. There was always something in the way.. we had no place to put stuff that was stored in garage so we had to add on to the small shed in the backyard. We had more financial setbacks.. Then we started doing better. We considered elevating our home, and the company came, measured, and never sent the estimate. We talked to a realtor about selling our house and was told that it would be hard to sell because it had flooded several times before.
ok so by then it was July of 2012. I went to church and as soon as I walked in I knew the message was for me. I just knew that God was about to tell me something. Well, the message was so good. It was on the time when the Isrealites were about to go into an impossible battle and this was the word from the Lord -
"You will not need to fight in this battle. Position yourselves, stand still, and see the salvation of the Lord who is with you..." 2 Chron. 20:17
Wow. I knew that was God speaking directly into my situation.
3 days later my house flooded.
ok God, what now?
Well, since that time we have been approved for a government grant that will buy our house for the fair market value. We feel that this is the answer from God we have been waiting for. The only problem is that they told us they had funding and it would only be about 30 to 60 days - a year and a half ago! Its so hard to keep waiting. The buyout date keeps changing and moving forward every few months. I know God has a plan for us but it is so hard to want to do something and not be able to. We are in classes again because ours expired and hopefully we will be able to move forward soon.
I want to trust
"O Lord my God, in you I put my trust..." Psalm 7:1
Its hard when you feel so burdened and called to do something but natural circumstances prevent it. Very hard. Years ago I know God put a burden for foster care/adoption on my heart. My husband agreed and we looked into it. We knew that we needed another bedroom because we have 4 kids and a 3 bedroom house. We started taking classes anyway and through the classes I felt complete confirmation that I was following God's will.
Well, had a few financial setbacks, then after some months went by we started to discuss the possibility of closing in our garage. There was always something in the way.. we had no place to put stuff that was stored in garage so we had to add on to the small shed in the backyard. We had more financial setbacks.. Then we started doing better. We considered elevating our home, and the company came, measured, and never sent the estimate. We talked to a realtor about selling our house and was told that it would be hard to sell because it had flooded several times before.
ok so by then it was July of 2012. I went to church and as soon as I walked in I knew the message was for me. I just knew that God was about to tell me something. Well, the message was so good. It was on the time when the Isrealites were about to go into an impossible battle and this was the word from the Lord -
"You will not need to fight in this battle. Position yourselves, stand still, and see the salvation of the Lord who is with you..." 2 Chron. 20:17
Wow. I knew that was God speaking directly into my situation.
3 days later my house flooded.
ok God, what now?
Well, since that time we have been approved for a government grant that will buy our house for the fair market value. We feel that this is the answer from God we have been waiting for. The only problem is that they told us they had funding and it would only be about 30 to 60 days - a year and a half ago! Its so hard to keep waiting. The buyout date keeps changing and moving forward every few months. I know God has a plan for us but it is so hard to want to do something and not be able to. We are in classes again because ours expired and hopefully we will be able to move forward soon.
I want to trust
"O Lord my God, in you I put my trust..." Psalm 7:1
Thursday, October 24, 2013
Breaking up is hard to do...
When your kids grow into teenagers well-meaning people have lots of advice. Right now 2 of my 4 kids are teenagers, with the third having a birthday next week and turning 13. So far, teenage things haven't been unbearable. We have the occasional attitude, but overall our kids are fantastic, fun to be around, and make great decisions. They also serve God with their whole heart. So, when our oldest daughter was turning 17, she met a guy and started a new parenting journey for us - dating.
Honestly, I couldn't believe how easy it was. He was perfect and I quickly became the president of his fan club lol. I was so proud to talk about my daughter's boyfriend and felt like this could possibly be the easiest part of parenting so far. He was adorable, responsible, loved God, hard worker, family guy, funny, really I could go on and on. The whole family bonded with him and for a year and 3 months he was the 7th member of our family.
I was completely emotionally unprepared when he told my daughter last week that they needed to spend some time apart. That they just needed to grow apart from each other and maybe this is permanent, maybe not. :( I realized that I could hardly help her because I was grieving too much myself. But really- he had already called me mom several times and was a part of every good memory for the last year- what else could I do.
We- my daughter and I - will get through this and sadly some scar tissue will remain. I know from my own growing up years that being hurt by someone you love takes its toll on trusting any one else. And as far as my "mommy in law crush" Im sure I will love the next guy as much. But something will keep my heart guarded and not trusting all the way, just in case... And there will never be another first time someone besides your kids calls you "Mom"
Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you, says the Lord. They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.
Honestly, I couldn't believe how easy it was. He was perfect and I quickly became the president of his fan club lol. I was so proud to talk about my daughter's boyfriend and felt like this could possibly be the easiest part of parenting so far. He was adorable, responsible, loved God, hard worker, family guy, funny, really I could go on and on. The whole family bonded with him and for a year and 3 months he was the 7th member of our family.
I was completely emotionally unprepared when he told my daughter last week that they needed to spend some time apart. That they just needed to grow apart from each other and maybe this is permanent, maybe not. :( I realized that I could hardly help her because I was grieving too much myself. But really- he had already called me mom several times and was a part of every good memory for the last year- what else could I do.
We- my daughter and I - will get through this and sadly some scar tissue will remain. I know from my own growing up years that being hurt by someone you love takes its toll on trusting any one else. And as far as my "mommy in law crush" Im sure I will love the next guy as much. But something will keep my heart guarded and not trusting all the way, just in case... And there will never be another first time someone besides your kids calls you "Mom"
Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you, says the Lord. They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.
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