Life Right Now

Chasing or waiting?

  Its hard when you feel so burdened and called to do something but natural circumstances prevent it. Very hard.  Years ago I know God put a burden for foster care/adoption on my heart. My husband agreed and we looked into it.  We knew that we needed another bedroom because we have 4 kids and a 3 bedroom house.  We started taking classes anyway and through the classes I felt complete confirmation that I was following God's will.

Well, had a few financial setbacks, then after some months went by we started to discuss the possibility of closing in our garage.  There was always something in the way.. we had no place to put stuff that was stored in garage so we had to add on to the small shed in the backyard.  We had more financial setbacks.. Then we started doing better.  We considered elevating our home, and the company came, measured, and never sent the estimate.  We talked to a realtor about selling our house and was told that it would be hard to sell because it had flooded several times before. 

ok so by then it was July of 2012.  I went to church and as soon as I walked in I knew the message was for me.  I just knew that God was about to tell me something.  Well, the message was so good.  It was on the time when the Isrealites were about to go into an impossible battle and this was the word from the Lord -

"You will not need to fight in this battle. Position yourselves, stand still, and see the salvation of the Lord who is with you..."  2 Chron. 20:17

 Wow.  I knew that was God speaking directly into my situation. 

3 days later my house flooded.

ok God, what now?

Well, since that time we have been approved for a government grant that will buy our house for the fair market value.  We feel that this is the answer from God we have been waiting for.  The only problem is that they told us they had funding and it would only be about 30 to 60 days -  a year and a half ago!  Its so hard to keep waiting.  The buyout date keeps changing and moving forward every few months.  I know God has a plan for us but it is so hard to want to do something and not be able to.  We are in classes again because ours expired and hopefully we will be able to move forward soon.

I want to trust

"O Lord my God, in you I put my trust..."  Psalm 7:1